Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Can we not be thicker than these?



Segmen jejak kasih 


Teman baik dan ahli keluarga semestinya tahu saya telah menghadapi beberapa kedegilan semasa proses asasi. Selepas SPM, saya telah ditawarkan untuk membuat Sains Fizik di Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah. Dengan berbekalkan semangat yang jitu serta keexcited-an saya mendapat program matrik setahun, saya telah bertekad untuk belajar di situ, walaupun sains bukanlah kegemaran utama saya. Di sinilah kiranya saya telah bertemu dengan gang-gang skema saya iaitu Shaz, Ecah dan Tijah. Walaupon nama mereka agak klasik, itu tidak membataskan kebaikan mereka mengajar saya matematik-subjek paling saya tidak mahir. Takdir walaubagaimanapun telah berjaya membuat saya penat belajar dan ingin berhenti belajar. Saya menjadi excited untuk keluar. 

2009
Kedah Matriculation College


memakai penutup hidun semasa tersebar selsema baby


oh ya, sila berhenti berfikir kenapa perlu ada peace setiap kali. terima kasih.


Lalu saya memohon utuk Asasi di UIA ataupun dalam bahasa orangputih ialah IIU dalam bidang bahasa Inggeris- subjek kegemaran saya. Ternyata sekali UIA tidak memahami saya apabila ia telah menawarkan bidang Undang-undang kepada saya. Tetapi saya mengeraskan hati dan masuk juga, dengan niat untuk menukar bidang. Satu semester saya diwajibkan membuat bidang undang-undang sebelum boleh memohon bidang Bahasa Ingeris. Syukur, di sini lah saya telah bertemu dengan pelbagai jenis manusia. Yang baik ada, yang pembuli ada, yang suka perempuan ada, yang alim ada, yang sentiasa sedih ada, yang suka senyum pun ada.  Tak lupa juga saya telah  berjaya bertemu dengan rakan-rakan yang arif lagi bijaksana serta sangat memahami, seperti berikut:

2009
October
Centre for Foundation Studies IIUM, Nilai
Doing Laws


selalu ke pj untuk menagih kasih sayang rakan-rakan di sana. hihi



teman sekelas dan sebilik.

farah dan yana


Kemudian saya telah memohon untuk menukar bidang ke bidang Bahasa Inggeris, seperti perancangan. Syukur sekali lagi, tiada aral datang bergolek. Saya berjaya masuk Ben! Ben@Benl adalah nama manja bagi Bachelor of English Language and Literature. Walaupun sedih meninggalkan rakan-rakan seperti di atas, saya telah berazam untuk mengikut kata hati saya. Syukur juga kerana disebabkan saya dikecualikan untuk mengambil subjek asas bahasa inggeris, tempoh pengajian saya untuk Ben ini adalah setahun. Lalu terjadilah perkenalan dengan rakan-rakan seangkatan ini. 

2010
CFS-ian lagi, dengan course baru~Benl.


cheerful miss hanita 



gawan-gawan di uia pj.

jika diperhati muka mereka seakan kucing sedikit.

Sharifah Noor Fathimah
sher dan nenek comel beliau. :)

muz! 

kina dan mdm. azimah, cikgu linguistics kesayangan kami.





Begitulah sebahagian dari kronikel hidup di kampus saya.. Sekarang saya menuntut di bidang yang sama tetapi sudah naik pangkat jadi budak degree di kampus besar gedabak Gombak. Walaupun sudah jarang bersosial bersama, kenangan itu pasti saya akan memaku di kepala saya... Gelak gedik bersama, tomyam basi bersama, homesick bersama sama. 




:)








p/s: masih merindui kawan-kawan sekolah menengah..
p/s: azianti's missing in cam.




Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Hi bu.

Hi Bu.
4.29 a.m. someday forgotten.


d:     hello? hello mama.
m:    hello...
d:     ma, takleh tidur. Ngantuk tapi mata takleh tutup.
m:    baca ayat Qursi hembus-hembus, baca 3 Kul, zikr sambil pejam mata. insyaAllah selamat Tuhan ada.
d:     hmm..okay.
m:    okay?
d:     hmm.. tapi ma teman ana tau. jangan tidur lagi.
m:    yela ma ada ni.
d:     hihi. okay bye.
m:    bye.

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wanita paling cantik.
wanita yang memasak nasi lemak tersedap di alam semesta.
wanita yang tak berhenti membuat lawak untuk anaknya sendiri walaupun anaknya skema tidak memahami.
wanita paling sabar melayan miscalls dari anak-anaknya.
wanita yang sanggup berjaga ketika aku sakit kuat.


wanita yang selalu membuat mataku menangis bila terbayangkan ketiadaannya nanti.



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d:   ma, sayang ana tak.
m:  sayang.




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Puan Nadimah Abdullah, I miss you. T.T



Monday, September 19, 2011

alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah..

Life gets better in here. I’ve got-

Allah
Parents calling everyday
Tidy room
Great friends
Great lecturers
Tight sleeps
Lots of cats
Enough money
Good health

I know you’re reading this, God. 谢谢 xie xie ni zheme duo! 

Btw, my classes have already begun. These are the subjects I've registered for this semester:
Introduction to Linguistics
Intensive Expository Writing
Literary Genres 1;Poetry
Introduction to History and Civilisation
Fardhu Ain (sister)

So as you can see, most of the subjects are of introductory courses, which we've already taken in CFS, Nilai.  InshaAllah, I really crave for some good grades- 3.5 will do. I need those numbers so that I can apply for JPA scholarship next semester, in case they reject my current application. Pray for me yea.

And uhh one more thing I'd like to share with you is that I have added some links of my favourite blogs in the Blogs I Read section. Please check 'em out when you're free yea. Great thoughts, great writings, great stories.



That's it. Time to grab some Maggi. Thanks for reading. :)














Saturday, September 17, 2011

What hijab exactly is to you?

                                                            

                                                             ...What hijab exactly is to you?...

Salamualaikum sisters out there. What a cliché title I know right? I know only some will read but care none, I need to speak up for something so it’s either to stay and listen, or get on to other sites that might catch your interest.

                                                    Hijab- an Arabic term which refers to modesty.

Modesty has been and continues to be a subject of Islamic modal statute, but it is its abused physical interpretation that has ignited the term as an oppressive muslim woman dress code. Obviously, the term was mushroomed by the skeptical idea by infidels who feel insecure over the wide spread of Islamic society, seemingly observed by the look of our muslim women. The barrier that keeps them a bit apart from our sisters, they say, can only be vanished by persuading them to take off their hijabs. Well, in Malaysia nothing much is left to say about our sisters. It is often like to see a half drown fish who wish to jump out of the tank to be free, without realizing that it is the water from the tank that has been keeping them alive back then. Sad, isn’t it? But here, as much as you see the ‘fish’, still there are those who acquainted and observe with the true concept of hijab. May we be among those people.

Wearing a hijab and understanding the concept of wearing the hijab are two completely different things. 

Wearing a hijab means choosing a hijab to match in with the garment, putting it on, and simply walking around head banging to Bruno mars’.

Understanding the concept of wearing the hijab is when you instill a good niah@intention of wearing one, observe the type of fabric, its length (whether it covers the chest or not), not doing something which could possibly spoil the initial niah of wearing hijab (like wearing it just for fashion or saving your money getting compounded by some fierce makguards of your college, instead of obeying the Islamic law), or showing off your untouch-able face skin in a great zoom-able picture in any social networking account, licking up some colourful lollipops! Or going to any places which can create fitnah (pubs maybe?) thus down rating the image of other muslim women wearing modesty (hijab).   

Shocked? Well I am. And impressed. How can I possibly write that when portraying outer beauty has become my top list in my free time favourite? which means that I am leading my way to riak? Which means each step I walked with the pride within was nothing but another sinful step to hell?  

Turn around and look at what we've done, sisters.




Then shall anyone who has done an atom's weight of good, see it!
And anyone who has done an atom's weight of evil, shall see it.


-Qur'an, surah 99 al zalzala ayat 7-8






Astaghfirullah..






                                                             what hijab exactly is to you?







Sunday, September 11, 2011

AZAMS.

assalamualaikum!

new look. new place. new resolution.

i made a vow to myself, which is quite scary because still i am not sure whether i'll abide by them or hmm.. not.

first resolution- i need a guru to teach me recite the Qoran.

and alhamdulillah! Syer agreed to be one. well she's good at it.
i've started learning the Qoran for like one and a half years and i'v finished that holy book twice. but i have a doubt on the hukm of my recitation. is it okayy for someone like me to learn reciting the Qoran without having someone to guide(guru).

last time i asked Ustz Azhar Idrus through fb, he said- bacaan mungkin betul dan mungkin salah. jadi kena cari guru baru untuk ajarkan.

so ya la.. untung berteman dengan seseorang yang xkedekut ilmu. cause dammit i still have a longg longg journey to go. my past has taught me a lot. jadi sekarang saya nak jadi seorang perempuan cantik luar dan dalam supaya Allah redha akan hidup saya. hihi.

resolution kedua ialah untuk lebih outspoken dan bersosial.

eversince my kindergarten i was a naive girl. malu gila jumpa dengan orang baru, be it a guy or a girl. asyik2 class, makan, tidur, gi toilet ngan orang yang sama ja. many thought tht i'm a cocky girl with shitty face who doesn't even smile bila jumpa orang. damn!! ramai yang cakap macam tu sampai saya dah boleh senyum sendiri bila dengar. dulu macam malas nak ambik kisah but now, i really think i need to speak to people. kena start senyum nampak gigi. kena start cakap kuat sikit sambil buat expression omg omg omputeh. kena buang muka pemalas dan buruk itu. perlu!

resolution ketiga ialah untuk mengosongkan hatred list.

seperti biasalah, i hate a lot of things in my life.
morning class, bumping into ex, bitchy colleagues, fierce lecturers, yellow veges, poor cats, copied assignments..bla..bla..
semua kena kosongkan. baru tenang hati.

fourth resolution- soulmate.
gatal betul. haha.
sapa yang taknak kawin kan.
btw i'm out of the game. no more relationships before 'akad. the only thing i'll work on is to pray and du'a to Allah swt. may He guide us to the truthful way of finding each other. may He take care of you every single day you live.
may He ease everything for both me and you.
berhenti mencari jodoh. biarlah jodoh yang cari kita.

:)

setakat ni, tulah dia saya punya azams. oh satu lagi ialah nak kumpul pointer tinggi-tinggi..hihi.

till then, bye!

iiu taaruf weak

September 6, 8.30 a.m. we arrived at Gombak.
checked in.



the room was quite okay actually. we were divided into 4 compartments. each compartment has a single bed, a study table with a note board, a study lamp, a bookshelf, and a large wardrobe.

the large closet. i could possibly sleep in it!




lots of briefings throughout the taaruf session. the only one that kept us awake was the censerve briefing.

muka happy menutup segala kengantukan diri.

climbing those stairs up with paten and cher.


the food was shockingly nice. the last time we ate was chicken chop. 

sher




we call it the batu caves stairs. the picture should tell why.

cultural nite on board. terbaikkk!


this huge pizza slice costs us only rm1.50. okay murah!  ^.^

fathin




awesome view from sher's window.  

anis as usual.

:)

such a boring entry i know, right? 

tapi saya sayang uia. uia baik.


p/s: seketul bracket yang manja di braces saya sudah tercabut. jadi saya harus segera pulangkan diri ke Dr.Zain di Kota Bharu. wuhuuu!